I still suck at yoga. Been doing it daily damn near 10 years and I still suck at yoga. A few months ago I thought I was pretty good at it, but then I started doing a different kind and I realized, yep I really suck at yoga. I read somewhere that if you spend 10,000 hours doing something, then you’ll officially be a master. I’m over halfway there, and something tells me no master shall I be.
What I can say with certainty is that barring catastrophic injury or death, I will still be at it 10 years from now. I’m hooked in the worst way. If I go a day without practicing yoga I feel like a slug. When I practice I sweat and flop around and get sore the next day and absolutely love the way it all makes me feel. I like to think it’s carried me through my 30’s, making me feel like I’m still in my 20’s with the same boundless energy I’ve had since I was a kid.
Five years ago I wrote a blog post about all the things in my life that changed after I started doing yoga, how it “ruined my career” as a single lawyer but helped launch me into a new world of entrepreneurism and fatherhood. It tamps down the fear that creeps up on me in the middle of the night. The responsibility of running a business and raising a family is huge, and I’m not immune to the stress. The road to where I am today is full of ruts and has always run right alongside a cliff. Without yoga I would have chickened out a long time ago.
Today I’m in Mexico on a yoga retreat, where I get to practice three times a day and there’s no meat, alcohol, drugs or “cigars” allowed. If you’d told me 15 years ago that this would be my idea of the perfect vacation I would have laughed. Now I can’t imagine any vacation without a daily dose of yoga, preferably hot. I’m with some people who I would definitely call masters, people for whom yoga literally saved their life after a horrific accident. Compared to theirs, my practice is sloppy, inflexible and weak. I’m inspired by them though, and I know I’ll just keep going every day not because I’ll ever be any good at this stuff, but just because I love it.